discover

I am a bit of obsseive-compulsive disorder no a bit , maybe large I am perfectionist I like computer instead of phone. Computer give me a sense of control . I like stay in a comfort zone for a long time until i am totally sick of it . Food , routine , all that . but i am also searching for new .

Now,i really , the important is its process not result ,it is applied to organizing my laptop , what the process bring is more than the result . Also some examination , always the used time bring us new thoughts and satisfacation not the result . So , i am not urging myself like the used . Even though , i have not started to prepare my CET-6 , en , i have not written even a paper , because i thought it is fake , just an exam can not prove my ability , right ? So regard it as a enjoyment !

Also , whatever wonderful a thing , if it repeats too many time , your brain will also get used to it and be sick of it . What we done is confronting the boring . And it is really uneasy for us to live until now .

Just enjoy it !

Also most time , the thing is not that scary than you imagine

I spend nearly my day oraganizing my computer .

Maybe it is not that important , but i just want to fix it down , and sometimes once i get into that , i will much concentrate and feel exhausted after it .

I am a diver , i enjoy diving into something and figuring out its principle.

what i like is building the sense of order.

If you spent all day watching random videos, you would feel guilty. But if you spend all day optimizing your laptop, your brain says: “Look at how hard we are working! Look at how organized we are!” It feels productive, but its hidden purpose is to keep you safely inside your comfort zone, away from the unpredictable anxiety of the exam or the outside world.——you sya i just avoid preparing my exam? but , life it that , not all about exam , it is related to manny meaningless things , and , life is that , not all about work , maybe i am escaping , but , emm , i more like to create , instead of learning , and the exam is really insame right ? we always worry about doing nothing , but the truth is , everything around us is just eating and living , right? What we should do is just earning enought the money for tomorrow , and then enjoy life , right ?

If the exchange tools of money makes me exhausted , i will reduce my cost . Becuase the output do not equal to the input . What i imagine is cooking for myslef to reduce the cost , also increse the enjoyment . The high speed and food-money-trade ruins our raw happiness . The process of cooking , the control of food . And maybe the environment is a except vital for me .Afterall , a good environment , a ordered sanctary is imperial